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[Nov. 28th, 2005|11:48 am] |
I have been just i guess so caught up in the moment lately. i havent really been paying attention to anything no more. Thanksgiving was great, the family came over. and it was nice. But it wast the same without Laura and Kevin. I miss them both. But of course the rest of the crazy family was there. Whcih i guess i loved.
but we just had a five day weekend. Which was great cause i really needed it. I just hate going to school. i guess every kid does. but oh well. im going to say it too.
So here is where i complain :::
i think that he was a major ass to treat her like that. And now i have to be there for her. Not like it is a problem for me to be there with her cause i dont mind. But he didnt have to be so rude about it. Like why did you ask her in the first place then you ass!? Did you jsut wake up today and think "Oh, i think im going to go break her heart today, cause i know that she really likes me?" Ugh, and it shouldnt make me so mad cause im not a part of it but it makes me mad cause he hurt her and she is my best friend!
I dont ever want to talk to her no more. she gives me dirty looks all the time. and i really dont need them. she just gave me one like five minutes ago. Excuse me honey, but im not the one who goes through friends like i go through tissues...k thanks.
I scared that as soon and i completely open up, he'll turn and walk the other was with another girl. and i dont want that to happen cause i love him. but it probably will cause every other boy has done it to me. i just dont want the one i REALLY like to do it. cause it will hurt 2589384274x worse. but i cant tell him that. cause he will say that he isnt going to. Just like they all have said but, i just dont know anymore. But i really really like him.
Im sitting in study hall and im bored outta my mind. but the bright side is tomorrow is a DRESS DOWN DAY!!! yess! im really excited cause i have two dress down days this week then. I get to go to the mall friday on a field trip cause im COOL like that :-D
Oh wait and things get better, cant he just leave me the fuck ALONE! i dont want nothing to fo with you anymore. I dont even want to talk to you no more. Like i said yes to being friends because i thought you would be a cool friend. but your not. You always tell me stories i dont want to hear, i dont care what you do with your life. Stop trying to make me jelous of you. ITS NOT WORKING i have someone else. i like him WAY more. i love him. and yes you do mean somethign to me, if you died i would care but my feelings for you have turned to just friends and will always be like that from now on. Stop trying.
[P.S. i think that you should leave me comments :-D cause you love me!] |
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[Nov. 25th, 2005|11:35 pm] |
So yesterday was thanksgiving, so i guess
Happy Thanksgiving!
even though i dont really think that it counts as a real holiday.
but Luqman came over for dinner and all [and of course so did the family] and i wish the night would have never ended :-D but of course every thing good comes to an end |
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[Nov. 21st, 2005|08:13 am] |
Him:Well actualli i am crazy
Him :Im crazy about u
Now maybe you dont care;
but i think i just fell in love with him |
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[Nov. 18th, 2005|11:29 am] |
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i love it when girls pretend like they know what really happend, when they DONT! We arnt really friends anymore. We don't talk and when we do..its "what was the hw?" thats it! so you dont know the story okay, not like its any of your business anyways. Its my life, i can live it how i want to. And i really dont need YOU in it, i have other friends who are there for me, who i can trust and i dont think that i could ever really trust you. cause you did tell me a BIG lie. something that i dont even kow why you would lie about it! I do talk to other people around the school, dont think that i dont talk to anyone. Did you really think that i wouldnt find out what you say about me and what i choose to do? I dont want to sound concieded here but i do have more friends in school then you do. CAUSE YOUR A BITCH if you havent noticed that one yet. Oh and i just am about to let it out! like a BIG let out.
i feel much better now, sorry i had to get that all out.
Tomorrow = Ring Day Dance!
im really excited for the dance tomorrow night, Of course im going with Luqman <3 not like you guys care but i do. Its just over all going to be fun, and then sleeping over at kristies which will be a lot of fun. i dont know what im going to do with my hair yet, haha like i have nothing to do with it, cause its short and i dont know. Ill probably just end up wearing it down.
Tonight im going to see Chicken Little... Are you jelous? cause you definitly should be. Me and Sam & two other people i dont know are going. They are Sammy's friends. It is going to be an adventure with Sammy! im definitly excited. She is going to take the bus home with me today [unless we have another sub, cause then they probably wont let her] |
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[Nov. 13th, 2005|07:24 pm] |
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I miss my brother and im scared for him not matte rhow many times you tell me to stop thinking about it. its kin of hard not to you dont knwo waht its like so shut up and just minnd your own business then.
The weekend was seriously so much fun though
friday i went to the movies with Luqman, we seen the movie Saw 2. It was really good. somewhat grusome but hey i can deal. afterwards we went to eat and i really did have a lot of fun. hes so funny, i love it. but that night when i got home i was laughing at my dad right ahah and as i walking to go into my basement i fell down teh stairs haha its liek not funny but now that i look back on it it is funny, i mean its was only like the 3 steps before the big steps but it hurt cause i like landed on my ankle wrong and it still hurts now.
Saturday i went to the ice rink and met up with meaghan and then Luqman met us there too. haha it was funny but i cant say why cause its too long to type in. but we went to the caz cafe and then back to the rink. Meaghans mom picked us up and then i ended up stopping home, getting clothes and sleeping over her house. It was a lot of fun. Hahah in the middle of the night her brother and his friends came into her room [at 3 AM] and were poking us with like fishing poles and they had wigs on. hahah its was funny but it wasnt at teh moment cause they woke us up but then this morning when me and meags got up we went into their room and T.P'd their room while they were sleping. it was deffinitly worth it. :)
but today i went to meaghans little brother sean's hockey game. and then afterwards we did open skate because meaghan is the like rink guard or something. but i learned how to like do that professional stop thing im so happy about that haha so now i dont accidentally run ito people. then i came home afterwards, and im really sore now. but oh well. it was funn.
but this weekend is the ring day dance and im so excited about that. Im gonig with Luqman! Which is even better cause it was so cute. he asked me to be his girlfriend tonight and of course i said.. YES. so im excited about that.
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[Nov. 12th, 2005|11:39 am] |
I have butterflies all over again
& its wierd but i like it |
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[Nov. 11th, 2005|10:20 pm] |
So, i went to the movies tonight & had soo much fun. I loved it, it made me feel so much better about the night. i seen saw 2 and it was really good. & i went to eat afterwards which was so much fun, i laughed almost the whole night. im so glad i went.
tomorrow im haning out with meaghan i do believe. it shall be fun, hoefully we hang out with luqman at kristies. its lways fun over there too but yeah. who knows. |
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[Nov. 10th, 2005|09:58 am] |
Seriusly, just go start drama somewhere else whore.
& recently, i have been second guessing myself, i think this may have been a mistake in the first place
&& i definitly just deleted 200 friends on myspace, & i liek it a lot better having only a hundred something people : ) so say that you have more friends then me i dont care, i dont want 290573 friends that i dont know! |
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[Nov. 8th, 2005|11:55 am] |
Alright i'm in study hall and i'm am completely bored out of my mind so i just made this livejournal. i have had one before but i always either forget my password or i just kind of forget that i have one of these cause i use xanga as well. i think that i like xanga more because you cant leave ANONYMOUS comments. I dont know.
Anyways, my brother left yesterday for the marines. i am so scared for him. i know that nothing that bad will happen to him but i just dont want him to get hurt. & he is strong i know but that doesnt mean all that much. I mean i guess the plus side is that i got his room, tv, surround system, car, & computer & a couple other things but honestly i would like give it all back to have him back from the marines and it has only been like a day so far.
So, i think that i am going to permentaly delete my myspace as well because im sick of it. i hate when people are like "Oh, do you have a myspace? cause i do." for some reason that kind of gets to me, and i know it shouldnt and thats so stupid that it does but i cant help it. For once, im going to say "oh, no i dont have a myspace" and i know that when i do finally say that, im going to love it.
I guess thursday i have a dress down day, thank god! ive been dieing for one of those like all year, i hate our uniform. Its so stupid. We have to pay to dress down though....$2.25!! i know that is a lot of money but i guess that if we raise enough money then we get like and extra day off so im up for it, as long as i get a day off from school. I seriously think that i hate school.& the councelor stopped me in the hall and asked me why i didnt come to my appointment cause we have to talk about my future. but im scared...i dont know what i want to be, i dont think that i have a special talent [if i do i dont know it] & i know wherei want to go to college but i dont know what i want to be, but i just told her that i kept forgetting. Im scared to go off on my own & i didnt really think about being on my own until my friend had said something about it. & thats when i realized that im not really independant, i dont like trying new and strange things by myself. i like having someone else there with me, and i know once i graduate that i am going to be on my own and i think i may be lost... & it scares me. Even if it doesnt scare you. |
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